Holding on.....tight.

I started this blog to mark milestones and memories of our family journey. Most make me laugh. Many times its just to share with friends and family, saving an email update or facebook message.

Tonight, as I sit alone on the couch, its to share, vent and hold tight to the promise of hope. I feel like this has been a season of challenges for us/me and quite frankly, I'm ready to pass this season. Ready for spring. I know that I have SO much to be grateful for and I am constantly reminded by the blessings I have in my life but sometimes, in the midst of a hard rain, its hard to see the sun.

The babies are healthy, we are so grateful for their continued growth and protection. Its amazing to me that we will meet them in 10-11 weeks. Christopher continues to be a joy and the light of my day, most days :)

Today however has been a tough one. At my appointment, my OB reminded me to take it easy and not add any additional stresses in my life (my blood pressure was an issue at the end of our pregnancy with C and he wants to try to avoid those issues this time). Well, we are trying to get our house on the market. That's stress enough for one person. Add to the fact that I cant help or do as much as I normally would, makes it that much harder.

On Mondays Jonathan works from home. Today, I was super glad for that. When I left for my Dr appmt our master toilet was clogged. No biggie. J said he would fix it. When I got home we realized the same thing was happening with the guest toilet. Then at 6, thirty minutes before he had to walk out the door, we noticed a large wet spot in the hallway. Four towels later, it was better but not great. Just before he left the house, he flushed the toilet and the "puddle" was back! Uggggg. Its kinda the last straw for me. I waited until J left and I had C in bed to fully break down but really.......its all overwhelming.

We have been trying to save to help with moving costs and getting a "new to us" car for our growing family. This problem could wipe this out. Its all just so much to handle. Especially for a 26 week, pregnant hormonal mommy.

So, I'm sitting on my couch, not drinking anything because I already know I'm going to need to pee 97 times tonight and we cant flush........ Uggg. I'm just in a funk and cant shake it.

We are praying for a minor problem that wont take much to fix!!!

On a side note, our wonderful church just celebrated its 10th year anniversary this weekend. It was so neat to be there and witness the history and we are excited to be a part of the future. As a church we are memorizing a verse a month this year. Given our recent trial, this months verse (which is also the verse our church was built on) seems quite fitting. So, Ive been reciting it over and over tonight.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

So tonight, I'm holding on ......tight to a plan to prosper and not to harm! Plans for a hope and a future!

Tomorrow, when I'm back to peeing in my own toilet, I will resume the light hearted Christopher stories. Until then........holding on.